Randomness Overload~

Too many mistakes in a short span of time can make us feel miserable about our beautiful life. But doesn’t that mean we actually forgot those beautiful moments in our life in the same period of time?

The best years in my life were since 2004 till 2008. Right after I stepped out of my school with my SPM results in my hand back in March 2009, I felt an urge to return to this school and continue my studies. That is why probably I chose Form Six as an option. After almost a year, I deeply regret my decision. Maybe Form Six is way too much for me or simply, I slacked off a lot. And it is a shame that all these realizations hit me after I ended my friendship with my bestie. Like usual, she guided me indirectly. Nowadays, I tried my best to study and work on subjects I’m weak such as Mathematics and Chemistry. All I’m hoping for is to pass all four papers to show that I’m not stupid. Full stop.

I’m not a studious girl. I spent most of my high school years by goofing around and still managed to secure second top student in the class. And I still believe that was possible because my teachers rocks in the class and I’m the type of person who depends on classroom lessons. There are few Form Six teachers that I wish to teach me in these 1 ½ year. Sir Lim just rocks when it comes to Mathematics. Although I barely passed my Additional Mathematics when he taught me back in Form 5, his lessons were understand-able by me. But now, I can’t even understand what is on the white board and Math-ing in home is just as hard. Sir Iskandar knows what his job. He entered the class, scribbled various equations in coloured marker pens and explains in detail. His English is good and I can understand what he’s trying to tell us. Now, the readers might already know what my current Chemistry teacher’s problem is. Biology lessons are sleep-causing but recently with God’s grace, I found it way more interesting than Mathematics. General Studies or rather known as Pengajian Am is uncomment-able lesson. What I should expect to learn from a teacher who is tired to climb only 4 flights of stairs and sulks at our actions? Fine. As a teacher, she should be able to control the class instead of complaining that huge number of students in the class in the reason of her mood swing. Also, she really should stop expecting us to answer exactly what is on her mind. After all circumstances, I will believe that God had shed some miracle over me if I pass all four papers. For a person like me, it’s really hard when classroom turned into hell. Nonetheless, I love every single teacher in my school.

If school has not give me enough trouble to deal with, my aunt adds up to it. Why everyone love to see Nanthini suffer? Why on earth watching Tamil show doesn’t bring any harm to my studies but watching a Korean show does? I just can’t understand the way she thinks. All she expects from me now is stay away from television and study my ass off for just another 2 months. Wouldn’t I die if I keep staring at books with no relaxation? But I did sacrifice a few Korean shows just for her.

Deepavali and my birthday is just less than a month away. And along the course is my so-called graduation under the name of Farewell Party for Form Five and Six students on 30th October. I still believe that there is a hidden wonder behind my birthday falling on Deepavali and STPM starts on 23rd November (2+3=5 is my lucky number ^_^) Hope everything goes just the way I hope.

P/S: Do you believe in Karma? Because I do believe it now. Seeing those individuals that hurt me is now suffering for certain reasons. You can call me devil for finding happiness in other’s pain but hey, even my Biology teacher said that not all of us are 100% saint.