Another Ending, Another Beginning

2009 will end in another 6 days. It was year that I never wanted to look back at. So many things had happened and only tears were my companion back then. Nevertheless, it were all gave me the courage to face the worst for next year.

The first half year, I had family problems which brought the most pain in my life. I would easily broke into tears which is not my nature at all. But I had my friends who always be there when I need the most.

I had a big fight with my BFF's boyfriend which actually affected the other half of the year. I avoided so many situations that could trigger a fight between us but at one point, I failed to hold back my anger. I never regret for my actions because I think it was me who put so much of effort to keep that so-called friendship. But what really brought trouble is when I became closer to his sister and mother.

They love me as their 5th child. Amma (means mother in Tamil) will introduce me as her daughter and akka (means sister in Tamil) will do the same by introducing me as her 'kutty' or sister whenever we go out together. I just love being in their house and talking to them. They gave me the encouragement that I needed. Since I was getting closer to his family, I decided to 'surrender' to him. But things doesn't work out as I want it to be. He still hates me and I hate him as well.

TVXQ were the one who made me matured. I believe they did. They went through so many things and I just worried about them as much as I worried about my loved ones. They taught me what is love and how to believe in someone when things went off your hands. I will love them and I don't care if people labels me as 'Crazy fangirl' or whatsoever.

2010 is a big year for me and as my brother-in-law said, my second chance. So many people that I wanna prove that I can make my dreams come true. And I'm just glad that I'm surrounded by people who love me because who am I. Hope 2010 brings more laughter and peace to my life.