Another Ending, Another Beginning

2009 will end in another 6 days. It was year that I never wanted to look back at. So many things had happened and only tears were my companion back then. Nevertheless, it were all gave me the courage to face the worst for next year.

The first half year, I had family problems which brought the most pain in my life. I would easily broke into tears which is not my nature at all. But I had my friends who always be there when I need the most.

I had a big fight with my BFF's boyfriend which actually affected the other half of the year. I avoided so many situations that could trigger a fight between us but at one point, I failed to hold back my anger. I never regret for my actions because I think it was me who put so much of effort to keep that so-called friendship. But what really brought trouble is when I became closer to his sister and mother.

They love me as their 5th child. Amma (means mother in Tamil) will introduce me as her daughter and akka (means sister in Tamil) will do the same by introducing me as her 'kutty' or sister whenever we go out together. I just love being in their house and talking to them. They gave me the encouragement that I needed. Since I was getting closer to his family, I decided to 'surrender' to him. But things doesn't work out as I want it to be. He still hates me and I hate him as well.

TVXQ were the one who made me matured. I believe they did. They went through so many things and I just worried about them as much as I worried about my loved ones. They taught me what is love and how to believe in someone when things went off your hands. I will love them and I don't care if people labels me as 'Crazy fangirl' or whatsoever.

2010 is a big year for me and as my brother-in-law said, my second chance. So many people that I wanna prove that I can make my dreams come true. And I'm just glad that I'm surrounded by people who love me because who am I. Hope 2010 brings more laughter and peace to my life.

It's Raya time!

This year, Hari Raya is a significant celebration for me. In my 5 years in SMK Seri Kampar where the majority of the students are Muslims, I never went to my friend's house for 'beraya' in the first 4 years. These last 2 years, I realized how fun it could be. Last year, I went not only to Myra's house but also to her Opah house, here in Bt.Berangkai. Myra has a huge age difference between her and her cousins. So she don't have anyone to spazz with. All she did was pick her phone up, type a text and send to me.

"Unnie, wake up! Come to my opah house as fast as you can. I'm dying in boredom T.T"

She greeted me with a warm smile and hug. I can't tell how much I missed her in the past 2 months. She's a bit plump but other than that, she looked the same. When I entered her Opah house, Myra's mom greeted me. I wished her 'Selamat Hari Raya, mak' and quite taken aback for she who adressed me 'Nanthu'. My nickname that only my friends used to call me. I had my breakfast, 'lemang' there and we started to talk about her life in UiTM and mine in SMKSK and not forgetting our sweethearts, DBSK. After a while, she want to me to take her for a ride in scooter. She enjoyed the ride as she hugged me and said 'I miss you, unnie'

On the 5th Raya, my friend Syuhada and I went to Myra's house in Tapah. In the morning. I 'beraya' in Syu's house and the biscuits were delicious despite it was brought ones. We took bus to Tapah and walked to Myra's house. Myra's old schoolmate were there also. Her mom was the best cook other than my mom and siblings. The food was simple and delicious. Myra and I spent 2 hours watching DBSK DVDs. Before I took the bus back to Kampar, she hugged me once again and wished me luck for my final exams.

I realized a smile and hug is the begining and ending of a real friendship.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri ^_^

School holidays had begun and I already decline my sister's kind invitation to spend the 10 days of holidays in her house. Of course it will be fun but I know about myself too well. I'm tended to be lazy when i'm away from my books and my study table. So, with full determination to study in these holidays, I'll stay in Kampar. I realized that nowadays I 'facebook' a lot...Haiz..need to cut down on that too...

Thanks to Sir Sham who helped me to deal with my problems yesterday. His words made me realized a few things and learn new ways to deal with my problems. One of them is do the things that can make me happy besides my friends.

DBSK

These 5 boys are seems to be the only remedy for my depression. With the lawsuit problems faced by the 3 members, I can only keep my fingers crossed for them. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH, the fans mantra.


To do list : Listen to all their songs, watch their videos and MVs and update myself with their news.

WRITING FAN FICTIONS OR STORIES

This is yet another thing that can make me happy. Pouring my own feelings in words is the best way for me to lessen my depression. Love, friendship and death are my favourite genre when in comes to fanfictions.


To do list : Continue my 'Amour Fou' which I find so good (It's the first time I felt like that towards my story). And should read the updates for 'Dark Orchid Bleeding' by Sacche unnie in LiveJournal.

DRAWING

I like to draw anime characters but only the simple ones. Should brush up my talent in this holidays.


To do list : Find more scenes in my Detective Conan comics to draw.


With so many things to do, this holidays gonna be as good as I wished for. Before signiing off, I would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my Muslim teachers and friends.


P/S: I'm carving for some biscuits and really hoping some of my friends can bring me some after school holidays ;p

Poor my blog~~

Wow~~It's been months since I update my blog. It's school holidays now and I'm damn bored, sitting in the house all the day. Not that my parents don't want to send me anywhere for holidays, it is just that I'm way too lazy to pack my clothes and set off for a nice travel. Instead, I decided to stay in Kampar.

1 week of orientation and 2 weeks of mass lecturings 'killed' me. I was able to survive the first lecture on Taxonomy (Biology) and pratically fell asleep in the 2nd and 3rd lectures. Mathematic T was fun. What I'm really expecting is a classroom and classmates who I can hope on to aid me in my studies. Teacher's Day was fun. Maybe because I was involved in the sketch. My team leader, Goh Kah Yew and teammates Chia, Kwan Hoe, Pushpa, grandchildren (forgot their names), make-up girl (forget her name), 'Tailoh' and PSP boy (don't know their names). After the school ended, Kah Yew called Pushpa and me to hit the town for lunch. It was a typical Chinese lunch with all the other teammates. The Chinese boys and girls were so friendly despite they are from different schools. Oh God! I just love Malaysia for the sake of its racial intergration.

Yesterday I checked my friend, Clone's blog and was surprised by what he wrote. He got an offer from Penang Matriculation College and due to certain unknown reasons, he 'escaped' from there and ended up in Kampar UTAR. I was really full of 'What the hell?'s and 'Oh My God's as I went through his blog. When I decided to do STPM, many were disappointed including my parents. To them, STPM is tougher and Matriculation is better. I ignored that and stay firm in my decision. I think STPM leavers have a better future than Matriculation students and again, I'm way too lazy to argue with them using this point. Two of my old friends are also doing STPM and one of them had just received a call from Pantai Putri Nursing College and she told me that the intake is in October. I think I'll enroll in a University before she finishes her studies.