JYJ + HoMin = TVXQ like forever?

Do you think I belong to the JYJ or HoMin stan? If you are reading this post, you ought to reply by telling me your guess.

Maybe I sound like I’m a JYJ-lover and anti-HoMin~ In my 3 years in this fandom, all I know is how to love ALL five of them. I know this is quite unfortunate for us to see them to be in this 2:3 ratio. But it’s not hard to love them as we used to. I don’t see a reason why we really need to choose a side. The only one we need to blame is that f***ing SME for causing this situation and not the boys.

I still remember when one of my fandom friends told me that she blames the boys for causing the fans torn apart between HoMin and JYJ~ I didn’t say anything as I sealed my mouth to prevent any argument erupts between us. I know the fans are in much pain but the pain that ALL five of them carries with them now is nothing compared to us. That’s why I respect them.

You know, it’s like you are complaining that your legs ache after a long walk and then you meet someone with amputated legs. Your pain is nothing compared to them who lost the chance to walk. Ok, that’s a weird example but you get my point, right?

I know how it feels to be isolated. Probably that’s why I want as much as support HoMin can get because JYJ already get attention from all the corner of the globe with their English-language album, The Beginning album. But poor HoMin who were restrained in singing for almost 2 years. That’s longer than their hiatus for Mirotic. So I kinda understand when Changmin said that he don’t want to be a singer in his next life~

If you wanna know whether I had picked a side or not, well this is my answer.

“I can never have a thought about JYJ without involving HoMin and vice versa. Therefore if I’m forced to choose a side then I’m willing to leave the fandom without a regret"

HoMin are my beloved spies~

So the JYJ concert in Malaysia is not confirmed YET~ I’m already 99% lost my hope that I can attend this concert but the remaining single percent means that I’m hoping for a miracle at the last minute. I belong to the “If we need a miracle, we will make one” fandom after all~

The purpose of this post is I want to touch and go on HoMin’s latest release “Before You Go” single~

Before You Go MV teaser was released a few days before the full version was out. The teaser is enough to tell us that this is more like a drama. You know, kinda have a story with a beginning and end~ But for me this was the problem. I couldn’t focus on both song and video while watching the MV because I was more attentive to the story. Well, when else I can see my two hot guys in black suits and holding guns if not in a MV or drama~ so decided to download the audio and listen to it without watching the MV.

And since I haven’t downloaded the audio yet, I can only review the video. LOL. Bad fan, I am~ xD

I love Changmin and no, this isn’t any declaration of me changing bias. Although I might jump into Changmin-camp if there’s any idea of changing bias.

In this MV, we can see the mature side of HoMin. I love especially the part where Changmin get suspicious of his fellow colleague and he looks outside of his office and that stare from him is priceless! ^0^ HoMin’s acting skills are impressive as they showed in the action scenes where every single kick is worth to watch.

A few days after the release of the MV, SME (yes, that money-sucking company) released the drama version of BYG~ and through this video, we can clarify something. Yunho and Ara is an item. LOL. I didn’t realize that in the MV. I find it’s awkward to see Yunho in a romantic scene with a girl. Blame me for not watching his HTTG drama yet. Maybe if I did, then I would have been used to it. Changmin should have a pair in the drama. I’m not really in the favor of belittling him even when they are now as duos. He’s 23 and he should taste romance in MV as well~ ok SME, you better seriously consider this for the next MV of them or I will stone you to death. Just kidding~

So it’s worth of watching the MV as we can see the new sides of the boys. If JYJ are more to the gentle approach, HoMin are more to the kick-the-butts type. Me love ^0^

Here’s the HQ version of BYG MV~




And here’s the HQ version of the BYG Drama version MV~




Download link for Before You Go (Mp3) (KYHD repackaged album)

Thank You~ Kamsahamnida~ Arigatou~

I should have done this a long time ago. But somehow I found myself trapped in a packed schedule ever since I’ve started working.
This time I’m going to express my deepest gratitude to my ever so lovely Dong Bang boys.

My leader-ssi

Yunho-ah, you’ve worked so hard so I wish you can have some rest now. With this lawsuit still going slow and steady and less promotional works than before, you should be able to just enjoy your life as young man. Although it will be a lonely journey, I hope you can strive it just well. Honestly, I don’t have any grudge against you. People say that first impression of someone will change as time passes. But in your case, my first impression of you just helps me to keep my faith in you. You are the one who made me fall for DBSK so that makes you more special to me in a way that no other 4 members can be. If it wasn’t for your unique rapping in Purple Line MV, I wouldn’t be sitting here and expressing my gratitude for my dongbang boys. It takes up a great deal of courage to lead a group. And you didn’t give up even things get complicated. The other four members relied on you most so you have to act all tough in front them. I never seen you shed tears but it breaks my heart just to see you got teary during your “Proud” performance at the FITB Live. The King of Talk in DBSK, I love you and thank you for moulding DBSK into the finest idol group in South Korea.

The founder of me

Jaejoong-ah, there’s nothing much I can talk about you. Yes, that’s because you are me. *laughs* why am I being cheesy now? I guess that’s what you did to me. You turned me from a crazy fangirl to a normal young lady. There’s no chance for you to know this but you are the one who made me love someone for their inner self. You are flawless and that’s obviously the main reason I chose you as my ultimate bias in DBSK. But as I get to know you, I knew I’m falling for you and am falling deeply as days passed. I have to constantly remind myself that I’m only one of the thousands of your fans so that I won’t tell my parents that I will only marry you. It’s kinda stepping on the ground really hard when I do have wishes of marrying you. Lalala~ You are dorky and caring yet the “speak before think” member in DBSK. Simply love the way you transited from your debut to your current state. You are no longer the cold and mysterious member of DBSK. And just like I said about Yunho, I realized that I’m fragile when I saw you shed tears during the “W” performance at the Thanksgiving in Tokyo Dome. I didn’t even watch the video but barely saw someone posted in a fansite that you cried at the show is enough to break me into pieces. I was keep murmuring “Jae didn’t cry. Fans might have mistaken his sweats for tears. Why he cried? He must have bottled so much inside him” to my own self. So this is supposed to be a gratitude note huh? *laughs* My hearty thanks for this guy who brought a whole new meaning to my late teen life. He made me appreciate my life and don’t take anything for granted. He’s the guy that I’m JAElous of. He have a nice voice, good and humble personality and almost perfect~ me <3>

The Duckbutt

Angel of DongBangShinKi~ this is the guy that can be as bright as the sun. He has such a beautiful voice that it’s an attraction itself. Although nowadays I seldom see him flashes his comforting smile, I knew the reason behind it. Junsu-ya, smile more but what’s more important is that you have to be back to your normal self. I demand for my old optimistic and bright duck-butted guy! XD Junsu is getting chubby and his ever so unchanging hairstyle should be changed. Maybe back to his “O” era hairstyle. What else I can say about this guy? *thinks* A natural charmer. Innocent but rotten mind? Sometimes, thinking about Junsu alone makes me smile like crazy. I mean, what a complex being he is. He’s religious, don’t smoke or drink and don’t have a girlfriend but still can write pervert lyrics for his solo song, Intoxication? And speaking of his charisma which is his real image in DBSK, I remembered of a funny remark made by a fan on a site. Junsu is a self-claimed charismatic member because he brainwashed the fans that he IS charismatic until we believe it. Truly an influential guy he is. He is the essence of DBSK and maybe like Changmin said once that “it’s not that we will miss Junsu if he’s not with us. It’s just it will be a bit more fun if he’s there with us.” So whenever Junsu is down, we can know something is really wrong somewhere. And he’s a soccer maniac! Lol. Such a cutie guy~ Kim Junsu, you truly possesses a charm like no others. I always believe someone who can make me smile on the grimmest day is an angel and you ARE my angel. Thanks for simply being in my life.


The Ebil Youngest

So Mr.Shim Changmin is the youngest among the five of them but might be the member that all his older members fear of. He has the tongue of ebil and attitude that attracts anyone. Actually Changmin is the one who I had set my eyes on PROPERLY but due to some vicious threats, I have to resort to Jaejoong which I don’t regret. So from then until now, Changmin continues to be my secret affair behind Jaejoong’s back. I don’t care what the netizens or media had labeled him but I knew he’s a nice younger brother to all four of them. I love Changmin from what I knew about him from past not present. The current sick issues revolving this young guy might influence my thoughts but I chose not to let it happen. I saw the relationships and I want to believe that. Period. He’s a grown up now. 23 years old and yet I find him quite childish sometimes. Especially when he laughs and those mismatching eyes and quirky lips of him. Shim Changmin, me heart you and believe in you like I have for other four members. Thank you to be the strongest among them mentally and physically. You taught me to be wise with my words and actions and stay humble and try my best in whatever I do.


The smiling prince

Yoochun-ah, I miss you. *laughs* random much huh? You are the reason for the mess in my love ranking in DBSK. One moment you were at No.3 and now you are tied with Changmin at No.2. you even made me THINK of changing bias. What the heck? But somehow I managed to resort to my old self by sticking to ultimate bias. *wipes sweat* Recently you and Jaejoong had found new form of entertainment which is ganging up against poor Junsu. I can see that you are trying very hard to make Junsu happy. Such a great composer you are and courageous also for writing the “Untitled Song Part 1”. I love your million dollar smile, chubby cheek balls and your milky skin. In the past, I used to see you being emotional but now you have toughen up yourself. I seldom see you shed tears but I wish I can because somehow it makes me feel that it’s not your true self. So Park Yoochun, thanks for being tough among the three emotional guys in DBSK and simply for your passion in music composition.

DongBang Boys~

my ever so fine dongbang boys~
Thanks and thanks and thanks~ it can go on for forever. Your

presence really changed my life in a way I don’t think any other artists can. You conquered me and I don’t regret for allowing myself to. I wish I can stay in this fandom for longer and if everything happens as what the fans and you five wish to happen, and then I will be in the fandom for the rest of my life. I’m proud to be a Cassiopeia that loves my “gods” unconditionally.

A/N: excuse my bad English. I seldom blogs therefore both writing and English of mine suck.

JYJ Concert in Malaysia --- On or Off?

Hey blog! Long time no post xD

JYJ IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!

Yeap. I’m excited but not as much as I did for their showcase. Can you believe I went to the showcase and soon will attend their world tour for the same album, The Beginning? *laughs* crazy me but never hate that~

Unlike Singapore, Thailand and Jakarta, the event is not officially confirmed for Malaysian leg. It was a hard process from the beginning. Malaysia wasn’t on the list and that’s enough to disappoint me. For a second, I thought that it was a wise choice that I chose to attend their showcase coz if I didn’t then I might have miss the chance to see them at all. So why Malaysia wasn’t on the list? Coz no one is willing to organize the event. After RedStar Presents organized the showcase, there are rumors that SM Entertainment don’t let RedStar to organize SS3 (Super Show 3) and also that there were so many complaints from the fans after attending the showcase.

To be honest, I was disappointed when I got to know that Malaysia was left out in the list. I even shed tears (I know it’s a petty matter to cry for but it just upsets me so much) I can accept it if they didn’t stop by any nearby countries but heck, they are having concerts in North (Thailand), South (Singapore) and Southwest (Indonesia) countries of Malaysia. Everywhere but not in Malaysia.

Then BOOM! An organizer came up. Charites Dream. They were interested but with a condition. They need 10K of attendees for the concert by clicking “Attending” on a page in Facebook. Thus begin the journey of Malaysian Cassies to persuade and share the news so we can reach the 10K in time. currently the number is 9900 (when I was on FB last night) I even sent an email to JYJ using their respective email ids given on their website, telling them how much I want to see them in Malaysia.

Apparently C-Jes had seen the calling for a concert in Malaysia because the management had contacted RedStar Presents and have a little discussion. Following this, RS had tweeted and updated their FB with "What do you think?" and link to the fan page attached.

So now, the concert is kinda confirmed (kinda coz RS still haven't tell us that it's confirmed. i don't know what kind of discussion that still going on between C-Jes and RS *deep sigh*) And the date chosen for the event is 30^th April 2010. It’s on 5^th Saturday and a working day for me. But guess what; I’m more than happy to take an unpaid leave for the sake of JYJ.

I even bought a cute red top to wear for the concert. YAY! I’m excited enough to strive through another 54 days.

am waiting for this to happen soon ^^

[Oneshot] Wish

Author’s note: The plot just popped out in my head from nowhere. Purely my imagination on how they will celebrate Jaejoong’s birthday.

WISH by anthra_JJ

Yunho flips through the cooking book. Obviously cooking is not his forte. “What the heck is baking soda?” Yunho scratches his head. He picks up his smart phone and type “baking soda” in the search bar. Related images and sites pop out. “Ah, BAKING SODA!” Yunho exclaimed when he realizes that he had seen the white powder in a small bottle before when he did shopping in supermarkets. “But I didn’t buy it. Haiz,” Yunho sighs. How he’s gonna bake a cake without baking soda. Yunho go through his contact list and stopped at a certain name. He touched the dial icon and waits.

“Ne,hyung” deep voice answered the call.
“Changmin-ah, help me”
“Call me…” “Changmin HYUNG, jebal~” chuckles were heard on the other side.
“What is it that hyung wants so desperately?”
“Baking soda? Could you buy it on your way home. ASAP,”
“Mweo? Haiz~ araseo,” Changmin answered in annoyance and hung up the call.

Yunho slides his phone back into his pocket and sigh in relieve. He looked at the cooking book and a wide grin appears on his face.

Jaejoongie, saengil chukahae~

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“Ahjumma, do you have baking soda here?” Changmin asks the shop owner. It’s a small shop in a less crowded area of Seoul so there’s no need for him to wear a mask. “Of course. Let me get it for you, son.” “Kamsahamnida,” Changmin bows slightly. He looks around the shop and something got his eyes. A small cactus plant on the window sill.

30 minutes later…

Changmin opens the door to find Yunho lying on the couch while watching TV.

“Oh wasseo?” Yunho rose after saw Changmin enters the apartment.
“20000 won,please” Changmin said as he takes off his shoes.
“Mweorageo? A small bottle of baking soda won’t cost that much, Shim Changmin!”
“Baking soda was only 2000 won,” Changmin hands over the small plastic bag to Yunho. “What’s in it?” Yunho asked, pointing at another bag that Changmin was holding.
“I need some snacks since I had walked all the way to a small store, waited for the ahjumma to ransack the whole store for the thing when it’s just beside the cashier’s desk, walked back to our headquarters and then was brought to our apartment by our manager,”

Yunho let a deep sigh. He knows very well that he have to pay for the snacks as well because if he didn’t, then the maknae won’t help him again. Yunho take out few notes and hand it to Changmin. “Here you go. Enjoy your snack time,” Yunho said with discontentment. Changmin just smiled and walks to his room.

Changmin place the bag on his desk and takes out the things one by one. Instant ramen, sweets, rice cakes and a small plastic box. Inside the box is a small cactus plant.

Jaejoong hyung, saengil chukahae~

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“Hyung,” Junsu breaks the silence. Tonight, the apartment is quite eerily silent compared to many nights that they had spent together in the very same living space.
“Which hyung,Junsu-yah? Remember I’m your hyung too,” Yoochun said and smirks at Junsu. “I will never call you ‘hyung’, Yoochunnie. Well maybe in your dreams, yes.” Junsu answers and throws the cushion he was holding at Yoochun.

“Guys,please. Let me be in peace while waiting for the clock to strike 12,” Jaejoong said and looked at the clock on the wall. 3 more minutes.

“Any ideas on how the fans will celebrate Jaejoong hyung’s birthday?” Yoochun continue having a conversation with Junsu, ignoring the older guy who is resting his head against the black leather couch with eyes closed.

“Cut cakes maybe? Or make cards for him? I don’t know,” Junsu answers Yoochun’s question without even looking at him. He rolls the papers in his hands and murmurs something that was barely could reach Yoochun’s eardrum.

“Junsu-yah, put your rehearsing for your musical on hold. Just for tonight. We have things to do,” Yoochun remarks on Junsu’s lack of attention on their conversation.

“I think the fans would do something techie such as updating their Cyworld or homepage with birthday wishes for Jaejoong. And Twitter! They can trend something like hash tag happybirthdayjejung,” Yoochun came up with some ideas.

“They will do that?”

The clock strikes 12 am and as spontaneously, both Yoochun and Junsu jumps on Jaejoong, giving him a combined beastly hug.

“Saengil chukahae,hyung!”

“Happy Birthday,man!”

“Enough with your English and bring out the cake,Junsu” Yoochun orders Junsu. Jaejoong only smiles at their acts. He knew very well that both of them trying not to let him feeling blue on his birthday. But how could he’s not sad when he can sense the utmost absence around him. Jaejoong wants not 4 arms but 8 arms snake him while wishing “Happy Birthday”.

Junsu mumbles something and slaps Jaejoong’s cheeks gently before walking into the kitchen. Minutes later he’s return with a small chocolate cake with candles lit on. After Junsu placed the cake on the coffee table, Jaejoong can see clearly the arrangement of the candles. There are five candles and placed in a form of ‘W’.

“Make a wish,hyung. Better be a good one. Like “I wish Junsu to have a girlfriend this yea” Eun Kyang Kyang~” Junsu cracks his legendary laughter. “Such a selfish kid,” Yoochun comments on Junsu’s wish.

Junsu and Yoochun knew what Jaejoong will wish for. It would be the same wish that he keep wishing in the past 2 years. They tried so hard to uplift Jaejoong’s mood but seems like Jaejoong already forgot how to celebrate birthday cheerfully. Maybe Jaejoong will when the day that all three of them expecting arrives.

Jaejoong looks at the cake and warm tears formed at lower fold of his eyelid. He closes his eyes immediately and makes a wish.

I wish the other two are with me now~

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Changmin stares at the cake with lust. He constantly licks his dry lips. Changmin wants to savour the chocolate cake that is decorated with thinly sliced almonds and strawberries but deep inside him, a fear revolves within the poor soul.

Can Shim Changmin trust his leader’s cooking skills?

“Haiz,” Changmin sighs and drops his head on the table. Yunho paused the game he was playing in his handphone and looks up at Changmin. “Wae geurae?”

“Hyung, did you follow the instructions precisely? I mean, there’s no room for errors like using salt instead of sugar,right?”

“Come on,Changmin. Although I’m a bad cook, I knew that this cake is meaningful for both of us,”

Changmin nods slowly and continue staring at cake. “1 more minute,” Yunho said as an alarm goes off in his phone. Yunho lets out a deep breath and lights the candles. There are five candles and carefully placed to form a “W”.

The clock strikes 12 and Changmin and Yunho looks at each other. Soft murmurs of “Saengil Chukahae,Jaejoongie,” and “Saengil Chukahae,hyung” were heard. All of a sudden, gust of wind from the nearby open window blows the candles off.

We wish the other three are with us now~

.::. The end .::.

At the end of the day, only CASSIOPEIA is eternal~

Believe me all the dramas that are revolving DBSK now sucks and tiring. Please take note. I LOVE AND SUPPORT ALL FIVE OF THEM. my love for them is based on their personalities and talents. I've never seen a number of equally talented and compliment to each other's vocal in a same BAND. so my respect is to Lee Soo Man who helped to brought us these wonderful individuals. but i still hate this guy for causing so much trouble for my boys.

So this is a video that i found very nice and motivating. Watch this video and get to know which category you fall in. Have fun ^^

[Trans] The reason for SM’s all-out attack on JYJ

Editor’s note: This is a translation of an opinion piece written by a Korean fan

The reason for SM’s all-out attack on JYJ is in essence due to it being gripped by a sense of crisis.

Watching the way SM’s contracted singers are coming out one by one to bash JYJ has only confirmed for me that [SM] is feeling cornered.

First of all, SM has been shaken by the success of JYJ’s solo activities in musicals and dramas after the filing of the lawsuit.

Secondly, through the showcases in Asia and 3 American cities held in the latter half of last year as well as the Seoul concert of November 27-28, SM was able to confirm JYJ’s hidden potential and star quality, and this has put them into a greater sense of crisis.

Thirdly, it is impossible to ignore the influence of JYJ’s growing fandom, which, in increasing the group’s selling power, threatens to interfere with SM’s market share and profits.

Fourthly, and this is perhaps the most fundamental of all the reasons, [SM’s] moral standing and justification is crumbling. After the decision of the Fair Trade Commission, SM doesn’t see any possibility of winning the court case. Like this, because they have lost their moral standing, their image will be tarnished and they face losing not only money but also their position in the market; hence the continuous and unending attacks [on JYJ].

Their strategic response stands on a single logic, that of ungratefulness and betrayal [on the part of JYJ], because this is the best that SM, which claims to be a company like a family, can come up with. But this is not logic but a ploy to stir people’s emotions and divert attention away from questions of human and labour rights by getting JYJ labelled as depraved and immoral. It appears that SM is determined to fight back with every dirty trick they know, knowing full well that they too will be splotched with dung at the end of it.

It looks like that’s how frightened [SM] is of JYJ and their fandom. While it is true that so far [SM] is pushing its contracted singers that can sway the public mood to the foreground and in the background mobilising the resources of the KFPCAI, TV stations and other organisations, it could reach a point where the managers of SM get directly involved…

However, what is the real face of it all?

Anyone who’s had even a modicum of experience in society or the workplace knows that ‘the logic of the company as family’ is nothing more than a smokescreen logic to suppress and exploit workers. Naturally, there are admirable businessmen who do all they can to create a family-like atmosphere in their companies. Yet, there isn’t a single worker who can’t tell the difference between a genuine family-like company and a fake one.

This fight, eventually JYJ will win.

Because they have moral legitimacy, courage and dreams, as well as a fandom that believes and supports them. Loving someone is no different from protecting that person, as the saying goes. What it means for us to protect the courageous and still dreaming JYJ is for us all to cheer them on and give them our full, most enthusiastic support. I too am planning to cheer them on and give them strength with all that I have. It’s true this could be a long-term commitment in a long fight. So, everyone, let’s go strong!

written by: 물병자리(ji7**) 님

translation: Jimmie@TheJYJFiles

A Word of Encouragement to the International DBSK Fandom

Submitted by: Jimmie

“The compass needle that wavers is never wrong.” (Sungkyunkwan Scandal/Islamic proverb)

By now everyone and their nanny has read some version of the AkaDong fan café’s public announcement and has heard that three other Korean fan cafés have made the same decision.

According to the AkaDong public announcement, the majority of Korean fan clubs went through an identity crisis around the time SM announced that Jung Yunho and Shim Changmin would be making a comeback carrying the name Dong Bang Shin Ki. That crisis has been largely resolved. What we are witnessing right now in Korea—the online bashing, the hacking of pro-JYJ fan sites, the irrational tantrum thrown by the DJ of MBC’s Radio Star—is simply the consequences of those decisions. The dust has settled, more or less. People are simply showing their true colours in the aftermath.

But, in announcing the resolution to that crisis, the unfortunate side effect has been to throw the international fanbase into the very identity crisis that was announced resolved. Of course, there are also many in the international fandom who had already reached their decision long before the announcements made by the Korean fan cafés. They too are now showing their true colours, sometimes rather ugly shades of it by intentionally spreading false or distorted information. The buffet of confirmation bias has officially opened and people are happily pigging out. This post is not interested in such gluttons.

This post is for the international fans that cherish memories of all five as Dong Bang Shin Ki, that can’t allocate more love for one member over another and vowed to support all five, that continue to believe against all odds that DBSK will stand as five again on the same stage. This piece of my mind and heart is for international fans who must be feeling overwhelming pressure right now in light of the decisions made by the Korean fandom to choose one side or the other, who are trying with all their might to refuse to even consider making such a decision or, if brought to the brink, can’t choose which side to go to. Although you may feel with each passing day pushed and pulled and prodded to go over to one side or the other, I cheer on your indecision.

It’s OK if you don’t think it’s right to pass judgment on Yunho and Changmin before hearing from their own mouths what they think in a setting free of SM’s influence. It’s OK to hang out on both JYJ and Homin blogs. It’s OK to feel conflicted about trending KYHD. And it’s OK to waver on the decision to buy the new TVXQ album or not. If all the hesitation, conflict and indecision are the result of a compassionate respect for each member of the original Dong Bang Shin Ki, then whatever decision you do end up making will be the right one.

Until the day he dies, Jaejoong’s flesh will testify, Accuse no man. JYJ have repeatedly stated in several interviews that they desire a reunion with the other two members, even if it means negotiating with SM. They themselves are finding it hard to let go entirely. So who has the right to belittle your inability to decide as a lack of intelligence or respect? In fact, I earnestly hope that one day history will show that you were the ones who were right all along.

Credits : [The JYJ Files]
Shared by : tohosomnia.net

[Recommendation] Fanfic : Already One Year

This is a fic written by my lovely Somnian friend, Farayas ^_^ she rocks when it comes to writing and PS. This one-shot is something that make us happy and teary by the way she portrays the characters and their longing for each other. so here you go~

Title: Already One Year
Author: kashiji @farayas
Rating: PG-13
Pairing(s): None
Warning: There is swearing in this story.
Genre: General, Angst
Length: Oneshot
Summary: As everyone counted down to the end of Christmas day, five men counted down to a new beginning.

Author's note: Got the idea for this story from a friend's tweet (I hope you know who you are) and the latest interviews the boys have done. Please don't pay much attention to the tenses. I know they're a mess.

Disclaimer: If I owned DBSK, I wouldn't be alive to write this.



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[Set to “Already One Year” by Brown Eyes]

“Earlier today, TVXQ / DBSK / Tohoshinki got together on stage to hold a concert at the Hongkou Soccer Stadium in Shanghai, China. Despite the turmoil, rumors of breakup, and lawsuit with SM Entertainment, the boys got together and put on a great show for the more than 30,000 fans in attendance.

According to fan accounts, TVXQ’s leader Yunho said: “The five of us will never part!” Even though the concert was held in China, this lead the crowd to chant “믿어요! 동방신기 사랑해” which translates to “Believe! We Love Dong Bang Shin Ki.” Jaejoong, and Micky were both seen crying around this time as well. There’s also a report that all 5 cried together at the end.”

It’s been more than a year since that day in Shanghai and the banners that they had held up for the five of them were still vividly engrained into his memory. He remembers how all of them felt, how everything was just so bittersweet.

“Hyung, I’m going out for a while. Will you be okay?” Changmin says quietly from the mouth of his bedroom door, his appearance rather solemn.

“Go ahead. I’ll be fine, Changmin-ah…” Yunho replies curtly.

Yunho hears the front door open and shut as Changmin leaves into the night. He stares blankly at the computer screen, a weary expression marking his face. The dull glow of the screen flickers in the darkness as he gets lost in his own thoughts. How did he even think that it was possible? They haven’t talked to each other in almost a year now and yet, he promised the fans that they’d never part?

Such lies, they all were. The past year has been a mess to say the least. He had never been so free in his entire life. He thought he would love the rest but…this feeling, this situation… It was something totally different than anything he’d ever experienced. Ironically, he never guessed that he’d actually miss the hustle and bustle that used to accompany the festive season. For once, he’d basically spent Christmas at home instead of on a plane.

A lone Christmas tree sat in the corner of their living room with barely any presents under it. He forgot that presents used to be Jaejoong’s thing so this year neither he nor Changmin bothered with it all. What was the point of it anyway? Neither of them were truly happy with everything right now.

Yunho sighs as he looks at the clock as it strikes twelve. Raising his wine glass in a toast to no one in particular, he whispers…

“Hana, deul, seh… Dong Bang Shin Ki imnida. Happy anniversary. I miss you guys so much.”

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“Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth”

Changmin smirks at the lyrics of the song on the radio. Honesty is always the best policy so what are they even thinking about in this song?

“But if that were true Changmin, then why do you never seem to be honest about your own feelings? Why are you here, driving alone in the middle of the night? Where are you going?” A quiet voice points out to him.

He hated his demons for being what they were. The inner Changmin was so annoying sometimes.

This past year, he had fully thrown himself into individual activities. Acting, modelling, dancing and English lessons filled up the hours in the day while 4 to 5 nights at the gym kept his mind preoccupied. He had become a hermit as he slowly but surely reduced his time with the outside world. It was something he knew his fans would surely miss. Heck, he even read their complaints as he randomly looked through fansites occasionally. He just couldn’t face them. This was his way to avoid having to lie to the people who loved him so dearly. Even in interviews for the Japanese magazines, he’d always made sure to answer cryptically so that probably some fans could get what he was trying to say without having to actually say it.

Changmin’s car expertly weaves through the streets of Seoul as he heads for that one spot at the Han River. One spot he knew was still secluded enough to be unknown to the sasaengs. He needed his thinking time again. Seeing Yunho so depressed before just made everything worse.

Once he arrives at his destination, Changmin parks the car and just sits in his seat, staring out into the black night. It was cold outside but his heart was colder. The silence was what he really needed to calm his nerves.

It was now 3am and for some reason, Radio 21 was blasting from his stereo. The lyrics of Chajatta filled the inner cavity of the car and it made him furious. He switches off the radio as he leaves his car, stomping over to the river bank. He takes a deep breath and shouts at the top of his lungs.

“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Fuck you guys for leaving us! Fuck you for making everything messed up. Fuck you for…just fuck. I fucking hate you!!”

White puffs of air leaves him as his heavy breath mingles with the cold winter night. He didn’t mean what he said…then again, maybe he did? He never swore but all the things that were crappy in his life right now were too much for him to handle. He hated not being in control, not knowing what was ahead. He was tired, even though he should be happy that he’d be on stage once again. But it wasn’t the same.

He returns to his car and opens a can of beer. Another thoughtful look graces his handsome features as he realizes that he still feels the same about his three hyungs.

“I still hate you. Happy anniversary.” He mutters as he downs his can of beer alone.

“Correction. You only hate them because you miss them like hell.”

Like he said before, inner Changmin is very annoying at times.

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“Jaejoong hyung… Your tree is so empty. Aside from the decorations, there’s pretty much nothing else. Where are the presents?” Junsu points out to the elder man.

Jaejoong shrugs at the question, as if it was nothing new. “Hmmm… Honestly, I didn’t know what to get. Besides, what’s the point? I live here alone, with Jiji. And that prince gets more presents than I do these days.”

“That is true. That’s why I told you to bring the food and leave Jiji behind.” Yoochun says cheekily.

“Do you have a death wish or something Yoochunnie?” The elder man’s glare bores into the side of Yoochun’s face as the younger one looks to Junsu for help.

“Don’t look at me.” Junsu puts his hands up defensively.

The room is suddenly quiet as each of them fall into silence. Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu. JYJ. It just wasn’t the same.

“I miss Yunho and Changmin. I miss my servant.” Junsu thinks aloud, his hand absentmindedly swirling the glass of orange juice. “Orenji Junsu,” he adds quietly.

“Thanks for pointing that out, Captain Obvious. Without your superb observational skills, we would have never realised it…” Yoochun sends a dead-panned stare to Junsu’s way.

“You sound like that brat maknae.” Says Junsu as he scrunches his nose in distaste.

“Yah~ Play nice. We all miss them, don’t we? Yunho and the maknae. I wonder what they’re doing right now?” Jaejoong smiles bitterly.

“Probably out drinking with the staff, like we are.” Yoochun adds in simply.

“We could hardly be called as such, Yoochunnie.” Jaejoong interjected.

The apartment was empty apart from the four warm bodies that filled it, three humans and one prince. Christmas was quiet this year, unlike any of their previous ones. Out of all the paths they had chosen, this was definitely the hardest. But they had no time to regret it or even to look back. All they could do is to keep on moving forward into the unknown future. They truly believe that things will work out in the end.

“Assa! Let’s make a toast. To the future!” Yoochun holds up his glass of soju and motions to the other two.

“To our two friends that we love so much!” Jaejoong added in happily as he clinked his glass together.

“To Dong Bang Shin Ki! May we rule the world some day! Eu kyang kyang~” Junsu laughed heartily, spilling his juice in the process.

“I think we almost already do. At least to the fans we do.” Yoochun added matter-of-factly.

“Oh shut up, Yoochun. Happy anniversary!” Jaejoong and Junsu said simultaneously and with that they burst out laughing despite their sadness.

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4:30am
Five phones glowed in the dark night. Most were on vibrate so they wouldn’t see that message till the next morning. But it was something that they would need for the rest of their journey.

“Oppa fighting, we'll always wait for you…”

Credits : Farayas

HoMin's New Album is released!

Changmin and Yunho had just released their new album Special Edition today followed by Normal Edition on 12th January 2011. Even before the MV released, the teasers made Cassiopeia excited with the catchy chorus and new images of the boys.



The songs in the album are AWESOME. What else can you expect from our beloved leader-ssi and maknae? To hear Changmin rap is something new but I love it~ Controversies blasted off when the lyrics were quite what we call as offending JYJ. But relax. We all knew that HoMin can't do anything regarding the lyrics as they are not the one who wrote it.

Translation of lyrics~

Keep your head down U-Know time (Max)
You know what time it is?
This is return of the king
...
(Everything has ended) I didn’t even start yet
(We broke up) I haven’t even heard the reason yet
Everyone around me keeps asking me why I’m like this
Why are you like that, why are you like that? I’m already the bad guy

(If it’s a sin) If loving you was a sin
(If that was a shin) If being genuine is a sin
(I’ll keep it low, I’ll keep it low) I’ll hold it in and stand my ground

(Keep your head down)
You look pretty, but inside you’re so different, that’s what I’m afraid of
(Keep your head down)
I said I loved you but I’ll let you go

(Why?) Did you leave me so easily
(Why?) Did I look easy to you?
(Why?) My heart is ripping to shreds
(Why?) If every moment was a dream
(Why?) If only I had the time to set it right
(Why?) I prayed for your happiness

I was always satisfied with having you
I was happy to dream the same dream as you no matter what they said
I had to let you go, but I’m just walking my path anyway
Now I’m just chillin’, Feel like I’m healing

It’s too late, you said you can’t come back
You’ve always believed that I’d crumble without you
That’s a misunderstanding, why would I do that? why, why, I told you I wouldn’t

(Hey) I was really, really sad, because you were so immature
and I was afraid you’d meet someone bad (Why? baby)

(Keep your head down)
You’re really pretty, but that’s all there is to you, there’s nothing important inside of you
(Keep your head down)
A nail is driven into the heart that is holding in the pain of love

Ha~ Don’t play with people like that
In front of me, all you do is speak of lies
You’re such a two-faced person
(Why why why) Since when did our crystal-like feelings become so opaque?
Our love has ended, I’ve let you go, and now my heart is empty
But my future is gesturing towards me to get up and smile
I’m letting you go, live happily (why why why)
One day far from now, far from now, I want to just smile comfortable

(Why?) Why
(Why?) You let go of our love so easily
(Why?) Did you ever think that someone would get worried?
(Why?) I don’t think you know yet
(Why?) Exactly just what you let go of
(Why?) Just remain there and watch me grow

(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve burned to death in my heart
(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve died in my heart and you no longer exist

Romanization~

Keep your head down U-Know time (Max)
You know what time it is?
This is return of the king

(modu kkeutnabeoryeotda) nan sijakdo an haebwanneunde
(heeojyeo beoryeotda) nan iyujocha mot deutgo
jubyeon saramdeul modu hanagachi nalbogo neo wae geurae
wae geurae wae geurae nan imi nappeun nom

(joeramyeon) neol saranghan ge joeramyeon
(geuge joeramyeon) jinsil haetdaneunge joeramyeon
(naneun Keep it low naneun Keep it low) nan chamanaego nae jaril jikyeo

(Keep your head down)
neon jeongmal yeppeujiman neomu dareun neoui sogi nan neomu duryeowo
(Keep your head down)
saranghaetda hajiman nan ije neol noketda

(wae?) nal geureoke swipge tteonanni
(wae?) naega swiwo boyeotdeon geoni
(wae?) nae gaseumeun jjijeojijanha
(wae?) modu han sunganui kkumieotdamyeon
(wae?) barojabeul sigani isseotdamyeon
(wae?) jebal nega haengbokhagil baraetda

na, eonjena eonjena neoreul gajin geollo chungbunhaetgo
sesangi mworaedo gateun kkumeul kkwoseo haengbokhaetgo
jigeumeun neol bonaege dwaetjiman eochapi nae gireul galppunigo
Now I’m just chillin’, Feel like I’m healing

neujeobeoryeotda, neon dasi doragal su eopdanda
nega eopdamyeon nan muneojil geora mitgetji yejeonbuteo neon
geugeon chakgagirago naega wae geurae wae geurae wae geurae neol tailleotjanha

Hey nan jeongmal, jeongmal seulpeotda cheori eopdeon nega
hoksirado nappeun saram mannalkka Why? baby

(Keep your head down)
neon jeongmal yeppeo geunde geuppuniya ne gaseume jungyohange eomneungeol
(Keep your head down)
sarangui apeumeul chamneun gaseume mot bakgo

(wae?) nal geureoke swipge tteonanni
(wae?) naega swiwo boyeotdeon geoni
(wae?) nae gaseumeun jjijeojijanha
(wae?) modu han sunganui kkumieotdamyeon
(wae?) barojabeul sigani isseotdamyeon
(wae?) jebal nega haengbokhagil baraetda

ha~ geureoke neo saram gatgo jangnan, jangnan chiji mara
nae apeseon yoraejorae geojitmalmaneul neureonoko
nuga bwado nuga bwado neon jeongmal ijungjeogiya
(wae wae wae) sujeong gatdeon maeumdeuri eonje geureoke takhaejyeonni
sarangeul kkeutnaetda neol bonaen gaseumi teong biwojyeotda
hajiman nae miraeneun machi ireonaseo useurago sonjitanda
neoreul bonaenda jeongmal haengbokhage sara(waewaewae)
meon hutnare meon hutnare geunyang pyeonhage utgo sipda haha

(wae?) wae~~~~~~~~
(wae?) sarangeul geureoke swipge nwabeorineun neoreul
(wae?) nugunga geokjeonghalgeoran saenggageun haebwanna
(wae?) niga nwa beorin ge neoneun mwonji
(wae?) ajik moreuneun geot gata
(wae?) geudaero meomulleo nareul jikyeobwa

(Keep your head down)
jiwojyeotda, sarajyeotda nae gaseume niga jugeo modu tabeoryeotda
(Keep your head down)
jiwojyeotda, sarajyeotda nae gaseume niga jugeo neoneun ije eopda

Download Full Album MP3 here

So listen to the songs and buy the album to support OUR Changmin and Yunho~